Who Knows?

I accidentally hit the publish on a post that is not completed and not ready to be published...so forgive all that. I was trying to type up a post Im very passionate about but I can't get it the way I want it to be. and Ive been too sick to try.  So maybe when Im well.  There's not much you can do when you're just hanging out...

waiting...to be you again. 

Since  27th of July I have been pretty much in bed or watching the world from my couch in between naps and bouts of fever.  I don't know but you tell me, there is  an out of control pandemic sweeping across the Country and I suddenly became ill with most of the symptoms..,so I just put 1 + 1 together.  So I have had no test to confirm it for a couple reasons...one: Im too sick to go wait in line to be tested...two: what difference does it make? Im still sick there is no cure.  No matter what it is I have to deal with it either way. 

AS long as I can treat and manage the symptoms Im having, that  is all one can do...according to health.net you should only go to your doctor if you consider yourself to be at risk or have a severe case.  I did not call a dr. I have not been off my place since I got sick that Monday at first I thought I had heat stress...and probably did..but then I did not recover. 

 In the beginning I was having  fevers come and go...a few hours a day I could sit up or stir around the house and do the little things I need to do, but then the fever and the headaches come back and I'd have to lay down and nights brings on more fever chills and night sweats so I was not resting well at all.

So my head got so hot...I put ice packs all over it, and it throbbed with each heartbeat, my pulse was high, my Blood pressure Low, I was completely dehydrated, I had muscle aches and joint pain, my vision was blurred, nausea, stomach issues, nose bleed, fever blisters on my lower lip, lost the rest of my sense of taste, mostly gone thanks to the dentist, the fever range was from 98.8 to 102. My normal temp is 97.7...a little below most people's norm. 

Then about 4 days ago these Splotches broke out on my entire body...pretty much all over not thick but everywhere.  They don't itch or have any eruptions...20% of Covid infected have skin blotches, and now I have what they refer to as Covid Toe, if you google it you will be surprised.  It's swelling of the feet and toes caused by the inflammation of blood vessels and possible tiny clots.  Even the bottom of my feet are affected, makes walking very difficult, and the blotches are now on my face too.  And I read it can affect the hands too so far my hands are ok.  When I began to move around a little more after putting ice packs on my feet, the swelling went down and the pain right now is not too bad in my feet. I had no breathing issues at all except I would get exhausted very quick and that would increase my respiratory. 

If it's not Covid then there's an another virus in town!! Because I've never had anything like this in my life.  I just want to get better and go on with life as best I am able.  Our state has had about 92,000 cases since March, 17% of people tested are positive.   I have been following the guidelines, so go figure.  The mask may slow it but its not gonna stop it 100% I was being very diligent but seems I got it anyways Like I say without a test I don't know but at this time It's more important I stay in, take care of myself and just try to get better, and  I don't want to pass on whatever it is I have to anyone else...And I hear it takes a week to get the results of a test. 
I hope to be well in a week. 


This raccoon and his mom were in the yard before I got sick...

I do not even have a primary care doctor..I always concentrated on Mom's health not on mine because I don't trust internal medicine pretty much witch doctors, case in point this virus! Internal medicine is like  playing a  guessing games, "lets try this"...anyway I the list of symptoms I did have are a page long! But not all happened at one time, and honestly I feel like a patient on the tv show HOUSE where there is a new symptom every hour.  Now that clots possibly developing in my feet, ?? WHO KNOWS? I can say at the time Im typing this I feel better, I am not going to jump right back into my routine when I begin to feel better, as I  read one lady relapsed on day 12, that is today for me.  I feel better today except for minor residual symptoms, than I have in 12 days. 

I plan to stay quarantined for as long I have to,  I wont be doing anything till I'm well, and honestly I can't do anything.  My strength is completely depleted. I will have to rehab myself and be very aware of how I feel when say a fever is starting to rise...being on top of the symptoms helps a lot.

A couple days have been better than others I sat up most the day read blogs, even made some posts for Writtin's...then there's those days when the head is just pounding so much you can't concentrate...I've been craving water melon, I have a water melon growing in my garden it had 2 melons so far very small...I hope I can get out to snap a photo before this posts on Friday but that may not happen since the covid-foot thing means I can barely put weight on my feet!!  I have no clue if the melons will actually mature, critters, and the heat may get it BUT I hope not.  

At least I have the dogwood tree to watch thru the window all sorts of birds move in and out of it all day long, and the hummingbird feeder hangs there so I still have my connection to the outside world I love..It took all the strength I could muster but I have dragged myself out to refill the feeders and then collapsed on the couch the rest of the day.



Im sure I will have some kind of post next week..hopefully announcing a full recovery.  I have not had a high fever for 2 full days now so I hope that means Im on the upside of getting better.

All this is my body's immune system's reaction to the viral invasion.  MY biggest fear is now it's IN ME does this mean it will flare up at will??? Re-activate? SO Far there is no data  of the post covid person and how it will affect your life moving forward.  Most virus's once you get one its for life.  How bad is the "outbreak" each time?  I don't think I could go thru this or want to go thru this again.  I read you must avoid people for at least 14 days AFTER your symptoms disappear. 

So now it's a wait and see how it will take me to get the rest of these symptoms under control and to able to start moving around more and developing strength again.  One thing was not mentioned on is how it affects your nervous system.  What I mean is like when I pick up an object and using fine motor skills there is a slight tremor, and a reluctance of that muscle to work...you get jitters like too much caffeine. 

So for anyone who says this is a hoax, I hope karma doesn't decide to show  you how wrong you are.  Im not out of the woods yet I have no idea whats next as far as how this virus will continue to wreck havoc on my system.  I am no spring chicken, Ive been very stressed and down and out since the death of my Mom followed closely by Casey's death and  those emotional stresses have left me in weaker state to handle something like this.
I do think I will recover but I also think I have a  ways to go...it's day by day.

EDIT: This article to me provides the best information on testing, contagion, and seems the most accurate based on what I now know I would recommend reading it and it gives a better understanding of how a healthy adult should can transmit or contract the virus and other important facts about it.

Meanwhile the weather continues to be the worst summer in history! Humidity has not been below 60% in weeks, heat indexes are over 100 every single day and we had a tropical storm on top of all that it rained buckets...
Hope things are going better in your world. 

PEACE

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