Scrooged... Again?

For me its like both the Bill Murray films, Groundhog Day and Scrooged all in one.....  

24 days till Christmas? How can this be? Not that I dislike the idea of Christmas, I can take it or leave it... another year is gone!!  I've always wanted one of those "old fashioned Christmases" like the ones on the Lifetime specials...a house in the woods, the tree touching the ceiling, a cozy fire, eggnog and carols, snow on Christmas morning...ETC..everyone laughing and being so cheerful and caring...WHO am I kidding eh?  Ours normally turns out somewhere between The Grinch and the National Lampoons Christmas.
"that tree is way too big for this room" 
"put those candles out... they stink"
"it's 65 degrees outside"
"oh that's not my size, I wish you hadn't"
although I'm kinda exaggerating here...my family would deny these accusations!

I've tried to refuse to do it, that blew up in my face, I've tried to pass it off onto other family members, that was a mess, I've tried to have NO gifts present some got bent over that, I've tried running away from home, they actually seemed to enjoy that....hmmmm and yet I came back...so here I am facing yet another Christmas reluctantly! ...the truth is I LIVE IN A HOUSE IN THE WOODS, its normally not cold enough to light a fire on Christmas, and we have a snowballs chance in h**l of having a white Christmas, although we usually get it the week after, if we get it in December!  People are normally grumpy, stressed, and not in good cheer.  I hate that call ---

1. Q. What are we gonna do for Christmas?      A. I have no clue.
2. Q. What do  you want for Christmas?
   A. I have no clue.
3. Q. Why do we even bother?
   A. I have no clue

HUM BUG

One thing that terrifies me now is going into the attic to get down decorations and left over wrapping paper etc...the attic stairs in this house is metal, the project house where I fell is NOT ... I get that knot in my stomach...but like riding a horse when you fall off you gotta get back in the
saddle,,,, at least once the casts come off ! DO yourself a favor if you have one of those staircases with wooden steps replace it right away!! 

I love twinkling lights any time of year..so I put those up outside, I love the baked goods so I bake, I love family so they come over, I enjoy wrapping gifts, so why do I dread it so? IT's when you ADD it all together makes me a  scrooge and there is no getting around it...

This year Im making a personal vow---I will enjoy the hoopla, the shopping, the cooking, the family, the gifting, and all that
...but I'm not putting up an inside tree....

 Then put the left overs back in the attic Pandora's Box until next year!  

...and so it is that I celebrate once more...
this post from 2010 in Writtn's  details how Christmas came into my life IT KINDA EXPLAINS why I get this way...

PEACE

Eleanor Roosevelt: You must do the thing you think you can not.