How depressed I've been since I found a little stray, the cutest little chihuahua you ever laid eyes on...that's not the part that depressed me, it was the realization I can not take on a 4th dog. I could not keep him. I barely have my head above water, feeding and vetting the three I have, all who came into my life in this same way; left alone with no one to care for them! When I make out my monthly budget I have to figure in dog food and heart worm preventive, it's so costly! I had already sworn I was NOT taking in any more dogs. It's hard to travel the way I want and drag them along as well as the expense of giving them the best life I can offer. So tears all day... then when I left him at the Humane Society I was bawling like a 6 yr old in Walmart after mama said NO! At some point in life you have to let someone else be the hero...I did all I could, I did not just turn my back on him I kept him one night and they were open Saturday so I took him before I had a chance to change my mind....I was already trying to convince myself I could do it...but it would mean a smaller slice of life for the 3 I've already made a commitment to, although his food bill wouldn't have been much... he was young he would need a complete vetting and he had not been fixed so right away medical bills, the girls are up for all their yearly vet checks in about a month. And it's very costly. And I have plans!
I hope the right family comes along and brings him into their hearts and home. I have to think that will be the outcome. When my heart is broken I turn to Nature to help me get through it...when I was a kid I had a horse, and I'd run and get a hug from her when things didn't go right her name was Silky...that big warm hug was like Silk, it got me right back on track. Today no hug...just cold hard realization.
*Sigh* why is life so hard sometimes?
*Sigh* why is life so hard sometimes?
I hope this doesn't sound like an excuse post...If it would not have put me in a hardship to keep him I def would have.
Remember when this little lady was found,
And then we found a home for her!
I said in that post that finding a home for her left me open to help another dog,,,,and 4 yrs later Casey came along...so I did exactly what I said I would do, he was so old I figured he would not be adopted, but the little guy up top is young and sooo friendly he will be adopted I'm sure! He loved being cuddled, Casey hates to be cuddled he likes to be admired from a distance so kids were out of the question with him.
Tell me I did the right thing...
Tell me I did the right thing...
I only knew him 24 hrs and yet I feel a hole in my heart.
...and then on Facebook a guy put up a photo of a Sharp Shinned hawk that got caught in a fence...and no one saved him! It broke my heart...People were too afraid to help him-- so he bites, he claws, it won't kill you all you need is a jacket or a pair of gloves...most animals in need will allow you to help them...If only I could have been there! I would not have hesitated on helping him...they could have tossed a shirt over him and untangled him and he could have been saved he would need help, but it was doable. Bird rehab centers have connections to help birds, we used to take our birds of prey to the Zoo their vet department would patch them up and then they would come to our center to heal and get strong and be released and if unable to be released a network of people who are licensed to keep them as Education birds or place them in facilities where they would be cared for would be utilized...so doing nothing is just not acceptable. There is just no way in Hell I'd take a photo of a bird in a situation like that then just walk away? Never...I'd die trying to help him.
Not a good week for me emotionally.
PEACE
Every day is a new Adventure.
