Monday, January 6, 2020
I had big plans for a post but since my last post I've been knocked down by what I am guessing is the FLU. I have been barely able to sit up for days...and although am trying to focus it's impossible. I hope at some point the fog will lift and my life will resume. Until then I hope all of you are well...and starting your year off with a bang. I am alone now as everyone is gone. It's pretty devastating. I have some chores to keep me busy as long as my stamina holds up and it will be a while before it does that. I had Mom's phone turned off this week, that was like the final straw that broke the camel's back..and I spent an entire day crying. Now I just have to encourage myself to get up and face each of these days the ones where I have no one around me and nothing seems real...pretty depressing. I tried to go into the yard and look up at birds and that made me feel faint.
There is no food in the house so today I must go into a store and be around cheerful normal people that is going to be very hard, because I want to scream...I don't know if I can even do that but I will try..I guess Im starting over from the ground up...reality is only just now sinking in.
Every day is a new Adventure.